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Torn Again

from Apis Mellifera by Brent Lee Regan

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I'm sick of these pitiful feelings... I feel miserable
Sick of never seeing or hearing her everywhere I go
Sick of the stereo because it's playing our songs
Sick of the world because it still moves on
Sick of the girls too - They got her face
Sick of the love... Sick of the hate
Sick of the way how I keep waiting in vain
Just to hear her say my name once again

I'm sick of this pain... enough to cripple me
She told me a million times that she wanted a little me
But they were all lies - She just wanted to chill with me
Until she found what she wanted from life and *poof* rid of me
It sickens me... Stuck with this mental imagery
Of us... Together in love and lust
And just when I though it was it wasn't in love
You packed my bags and left me out in a big ball dust

I know I'm not perfect - beneath or on surface
Cuz I was born a sin...
And everyone knows it - Still you treat me like Joseph
Well, I've been torn again...

Torn again by that thorn in my side
Pierced my skin and formed a hole in my hide
Scorched by a fire as I wipe the torrential tide of tears
From the many cries of last year
Still surviving - I wonder how I'm still here
Tryna make it in a doomed career
But when I've always been a zero - Never equal to nothing
Teacher's said you're kidding yourself Brent... You think that you are something?

Kids calling me queer - Jeering, giggling, sneering...
Always making me clear of their assumptions
I never stop running - fiercely keep on gunning
My peers are poking fun... I'm not a smear on their conscience?
This constant nonsense follows me today
The faces change and so do the names
One thing remains though, they're all out for the take
But what's already broken you can not break... I'll be okay

I know I'm not perfect - beneath or on surface
Cuz I was born a sin...
And everyone knows it - Still you treat me like Joseph
Well, I've been torn again...

But I can struggle on, turn troubles in to songs
Got a big ol' book of rhymes and a tiny book of calm
Spend all my days studying Torah, the gospels, Al' Quran...
Surah by surah - I read 'em all
From Nag Hammadi to the Dead Sea Scrolls
Everything that deals with the genesis of my soul
Everything that heals all the blessings that we hold
And the exodus from home - from the love that was once known

With God in my heart - I'm never alone
Since my so-called friends resent me / I'm entrenched in a zone
Negative energy left me - But positivity roams
The resonance benefits Brent Lee - Don't you hear it in my bones?
This is my atonement... I write to redeem my wrongs
My souls attempt at peace because it might not be here long
Tomorrow's never promised and today just goes on
So I need you to know: I love you all... Peace out... Shalom!

I know I'm not perfect - beneath or on surface
Cuz I was born a sin...
And everyone knows it - Still you treat me like Joseph
Well, I've been torn again...

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from Apis Mellifera, released August 5, 2009

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Brent Lee Regan Bristol, UK

Brent Lee Regan is a Producer, Musician, Singer and Rapper whose music has been featured on multiple platforms including Radio, TV, Documentaries, DVD, Video Games and more. He has worked with many artists, film makers and companies which has garnered him a valuable reputation with Independent and Corporate clients. ... more

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